As an artist, one would think that commissioned work is one of the greatest opportunities to have; and don’t get me wrong, it is! It lets us know that someone is highly interested in our style of work and is willing to pay a good price to own it. I, on the other hand, was opposed to creating commissioned work because I felt as if my pieces weren’t good enough to sell. I was more comfortable painting for myself and keeping it stored in my room; but what good was that really, right? lol. But, the more and more I created, the more I was impressed with what I can do. I began to expose my work to friends and family, which has given me a positive push to move forward. However, getting feedback from family and friends wasn’t always the best idea, lol. I love them dearly, but I can’t always rely on their opinion when it’s just repetitive input of, “ooh that’s nice!…what is it?”, “you’re so talented” or my favorite, “nahh, this shit is mad dope” lol. It’s hard to get critiqued when you’re always getting positive feedback, so I resulted to publicizing my art onto social media and attending artists workshops.
Granted, on social media, my work was ‘liked’ by followers I already knew, but, it still opened doors for others to occasionally view my page whenever I posted something new. I knew that displaying my pieces was a risk because it allowed for others to ask about commissioned work – that’s when the rolling of the eyes began, lol. Taking offers frightened me, eek! I began to imagine all the possible things that can go wrong, “what if I make a mistake?”, “what if they don’t like it?”, or better yet, “how much should I charge?” All of these things came rushing through my mind to the point where I would just decline the offer altogether.
That was the problem I had, I was too complacent with my behavior, and that wasn’t the type of quality I wanted to embody in the future. So, I did what any smart person who wanted to get out their comfort zone did; I took some offers!! As a start, I created pieces, little by little, for a few friends. It was definitely a switch-a-roo for me, but I had to recognize my value and begin to add value in myself. Knowing that I wanted to get better meant, I had to trust myself and my ability to rise above all challenges. In fact, that is what I am trying to do every day; continuing to challenge myself, whether it’s drawing daily, or taking art classes. It’s pivotal to keep on learning new techniques to improve your skills. If you have something you’re passionate about, yet you’re not where you want to be, no worries, just continue to grind hard and YOU’LL GET THERE!
"If we want to change our lives, we have to change the way we think of ourselves. If we want to change the way we think of ourselves, we need to change the way we talk to ourselves."